it was never a problem that I didn't want it...it was a problem that h didn't and I always got irritated with that...I mean common' now...not fair for me to go out and be desired..come home and be turned down!! I was the one dealing with rejection..but if I think back I can recall being the one who wanted "it" when he just wanted to cuddle and being a bit pissy about it all...a role reversal I guess I don't know.. the issue now for me is to keep from going there while still working on the physical intimacy issue...and how to draw the line...I don't want to get irritated myself when a cuddle doesn't lead to anything...nor do I want him to feel that way...
guess the thing is...sometimes I just want more than a peck on the cheek but no more than that...and other times I want it all. or rather...I don't want it to be all or nothing all the time.
