mk--I have no idea what that acronym is... hope you are still speaking highly of me :0)
OT, yeah, for the most part it was good. I just wish that the overarching, important "thing" in my life was where I want it to be. I can have a fun, filled life, but there is always something so...imperitive? essential? deep? (don't know the word) missing, that makes me so sad right after I have had a good time or experienced a good moment.
When you said that H will need at least a year to stand being around me--
is there anything I can do to shorten the time? I know, I am still trying to control the uncontrolable...but I miss him, and there is still so much that reminds me of what is not there--
I keep fluctuating between being dark to showing the desperation, trying to reason with someone who will not be reasoned with. I know that Trip is right, and I have to get back to the essential DB principles. When and if I am sure that I can, ANY contact has to be self-assured, calm and pleasant. And very brief. Polite, business acquaintences (sp?).
I have been thinking that this is what the covenent and social boundaries of marriage are for--to bounce unhappy spouses back into their M, have them work on it when there is no other choice. It makes both sides stronger and (hopefully) happier when they can overcome this horror. Somewhere along the way, our WS have decided that there is another option--I SO wish that we could both be looking at this without the D "security-blanket."
