So it seems I go longer and longer between posts now. Basically I have settled into a level of acceptance that I neither want or like. But I must persevere although I do get bouts of the blues where I want to throw in the towel. It's all so mentally and emotionally draining. But I'll get through this little bout of the blues, at least I know they only last short amounts of time now and not days on end. So much of these bouts come from other influences like being unemployed. Yep now beginning month three and I definitely am in the dog days of the job search.
As for my wife, well I have confirmation that she's confused, doesn't have any intention of filing this year and never did engage in any type of EA. But she's thinking about dating because she wants adult companionship but supposedly only for conversation and not romance. Not sure I really believe that.
I'm trying to give her space for her but really for me. I need to work through a few more things, prove some things to myself. She's been out of the country on business since last Tuesday and this is a good opportunity to work on me. But of course it's difficult as we all know. Hopefully the extended time apart and space will help her and help us.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
