The internal meltdown was related to the "me doing everything and not being appreciated" thoughts. I need a "temperament transplant" myself. OK now.
Yep, Textbook CVA. All this stuff is important to me and for my kids too, i.e. I would do it if she were not around so....that is why I am pissed at myself for being irritated that I dont get "atta boys".
My W does a lot, she just does it at her own pace. When I am not around, it all gets done, just not on CVA time. More like Geologic time, but I have been told I am super hyper and need everything done yesterday. Ummmmm, that would be a true statment and working on that one. A friend of mine, who worked for me and was a captain of a college Golf team, and I were walking the course one day and I was complaining about this very topic, and he said, look at how we walk, talk, do business, look at us right now (we were walking down the fairway), "we just do life at a different speed." He was younger but so much wiser than me at the time (story of my life, I am about 10-15 yrs behind everyone else). Pt being, I dont slow down easy and although others like W have no real issues, my expectations are just way too high of other people, let alone myself. What a copout line, eh? What a load, working on that one too.
Wish me luck, W was supposed to go to the "girls night out bday party", it got called off but....interestingly she called me (after I already found out from super hot friend at the gym) to tell me it was called off but that the remainder of the booby crew still wanted to go to dinner since it was alrady planned and "was it alright w/ me or is there just too much going on, I wanted to call you before I responded". I just said "uh, yeah, already planned (to watch you walk out the door looking hot...did not say that one ;)) to watch the kids so sure..."
She started the call w/ "what are u doing",. "just got to work, what's up?" then the whole thing about tonight. Fascinating...when she wants something from me its all miss nicey nicey. How about making an effort like this all the time, I suspect we would not be where we are if both of us had made these efforts.
This was longer than I thought, sorry, thanks for checking in.
C
Me: 46 Wife: 39 D: 13 S: 11, 9, 7 Bomb 3.2.07, Sep Same Day, D papers 11.1.07 Current Status - Wants to take me through Discovery, I will go to prison first.
OK now. 
A friend of mine, who worked for me and was a captain of a college Golf team, and I were walking the course one day and I was complaining about this very topic, and he said, look at how we walk, talk, do business, look at us right now (we were walking down the fairway), "we just do life at a different speed." He was younger but so much wiser than me at the time (story of my life, I am about 10-15 yrs behind everyone else). Pt being, I dont slow down easy and although others like W have no real issues, my expectations are just way too high of other people, let alone myself. What a copout line, eh? What a load, working on that one too. 
still wanted to go to dinner since it was alrady planned and "was it alright w/ me or is there just too much going on, I wanted to call you before I responded". I just said "uh, yeah, already planned (to watch you walk out the door looking hot...did not say that one ;)) to watch the kids so sure..."
