h calls..talks to son..then asks for me...asks me if son will be awake when he gets home... then asks if he can talk to me for a minute...ok says I
h says he is sorry...i think he said I love you but I couldn't really hear and when I asked him to repeat (and said I wasn't trying to be rude I really just couldn't hear him) so he said...I just wanted to say I'm sorry.. can't do word for word cause I don't get it all..but h is hurting...h is in pain..h is sorry for all this...h knows I am in pain...h says he can't talk much because he is hurting...h doesn't want to lose his family...h certainly doesn't want me going out to coffee with strange men...h is sorry that all this has happend. h is hurting and just wants peace.
I don't know what all that means...if there will be more later or if that's it..no where in there does it say he wants to be with me...no where in there does it say don't file for d...no where in there does it say..let's do something about us...nowhere in there does it say I don't want to lose you...
now I want to cry...actually am crying...I don't know anything...I don't understand my h...I don't hear him...he doesn't say things clearly it's all a riddle of words and I don't see the answer in it what he says can mean anything..why can I never get a direct statement?
