He's running but I'm not chasing. I have not made any attempt to contact him, and I have been trying to focus on myself. None of my back and forth and ups and downs have been communicated anywhere but here and in my journal.
H said this is just something he has to do, so I'm going to believe that. We all know it's all about them anyway. No matter what I'm feeling now, I know things were good and H was happy. It wasn't all an act. Whatever sent him spinning happened fairly quickly, a lot of triggers all at once, sending him into the 'life is short, what do I want" mode.
He's been very careful to leave the door open so I'm not going to close it right now. But I'm not doing any chasing.
In4ride Me 50, H 55, M 17 yrs 1st Bomb Drop 12/7/03 Separated mostly in house Come back together/H breaks back 9/04 Piecing, surgeries, recovery, H retires 2nd Bomb Drop 9/3/07 H moves out 20 min later
