3 Days to go

[Psch1968]

Hi Lissie - no don't call, its like when I looked at the BB it actually made me worse and drive me away from the DB principles. As you said, I really don't know whats going on - one of the texts had the tile "Our move/truck" - now that could be his move totally independent of the sitch we are in or it could be something more sinister ..... you see my fear/threat/anger/hopelessness all building and despite keep telling me she is being honest, I am really questining that, and accordingly struggling to stay the course.

You know the funny thing is that if she told me now, I would still fight for us, I would tell her I would forgive her, etc. But as each day passes with me, where we just seem to be treading water with nothing going on, my desire to remain with her, stay friends with her, wanes a little further - thats the tragedy, that in these sports of cases the majority end in D but they could all be so much easier if people were just honest.

I dont know - this morning more confused than ever, we did swap some harmless texts during the evening last nite, she finished by wishing me 'sweet dreams' - am I just being reactive or is that a warped thing to wish someone you have just left?????