h comes home...plays outside with son while I put dd for a nap...h calls in to me...hey come see this...son playing ball in 4 ft snow..and rolling down the snowbank.
get lunch for son...offer h a sandwich..no thanks he says..stomach not up to it...h sits with son while son eats...dd wakes...I tell h I called and have an appointment..h asks when...what time...where....where did you find this lawyer? etc..
I let h know I am doing this to set him free..giving him what he wants...
h says nothing...
son asks if I'm angry ..not at you sweetie says I...son asks if I am angry at daddy...a little says I...h says LL angrily as if it is not ok for a child to know that people can be angry with someone other than him??? I let h know that there is nothing wrong with having feelings..that I want my son to know about and accept feelings...etc..
I get dd...feed dd lunch..h is putting on his boots to leave for work..kisses dd...kisses son at door...son then says mamma's turn...I don't move from my chair..h walks in and gives me a hard kiss on the forehead..and leaves...saying see you later (does that mean he plans to come home this evening?) I let him know I will proceed as quickly as possible so he can be free...it's what you want isn't it?? h closes the door and walks away.
WTF??? say yes it's what I want...say no it's not what I want...say I don't know what I want...say something dumb ass!!
