thanks, ladies. I don't see him till tues. night, and then I'll probably nip out to the gym for cardio, so won't even be around. that will give me a little bit of breathing space, anyway.
I'm just mad at myself. mad that I am not being stronger, because I know I need to be. and the last thing I want is him getting too comfy with this arrangement. not a good thing, at least not for me. its funny, I need to remember that I need to be the one to protect myself/my feelings. I am still so used to allowing him to do that, expecting him to, even. yes, in spite of how horribly he's treated me, I have a hard time letting that go. so I need to remember its me I need to rely on.
Last edited by morgan; 09/10/0710:22 AM.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
