Now I've done it

[nephartiti]

He was in town today apparently. Took $100.00 out the the ATM nearby. That's his biggest withdrawal to date, besides the phone and glasses. Wonder what he's up to... He's here often, but never comes by or calls. I figured it was because he goes to the school while she's working, but it's the weekend...

Our S2 was asking about him constantly today. Call Papa? Time to get Papa? Papa coming home? Wait for Papa? My heart is breaking for him.

I bought the dye, but haven't done it yet (fiery red). I'm tapping into my Pele power. Dudes don't dare mess with her. I'm a Tori Amos fan. In one of the songs from her Boys for Pele album, she says

"Building tumbling down
didn't know our love was
so small
couldn't stand at all

Boys on my left side
Boys on my right side
Boys in the middle
but your not here
I need a big loan
from the girl zone..." (Caught a Light Sneeze)

About being back on the market, I've had some invites but feel like I'm... cheating. These are from old "friends". I know I don't want anything beyond friendly companionship, but, under the circumstances, I feel I'm better off not even going there.

Where do you guys draw the line? Obviously, our H's have company, but two wrongs don't make a right. Right? Even a platonic outing could possibly complicate things and be turned around to make me look bad. I could use the boost in my self esteem, though. It's probably not the best place to go looking for that boost.

H has only been gone a few weeks. I'll GAL with the girls for now. I'm supposed to go see my SIL (brother's wife) tonight.

I feel like I'm rambling. Thanks for the support, Ladies. Y'all are the bomb!