What a day, draining day. First of all, you are none of those things you mentioned. You are a woman, a wife who still loves her husband. You are a wife and a mother fighting for what you want. You can't detach from all of that or you would give up. mk is right, its GOOD that he is so interested in you. The kissing alone is a great sign (the few times H and I have been intimate, we have kissed soooo much). If he wanted sex, and sex alone, he would have cut to the chase. So confused that husband of yours.
Please don't beat yourself up, you did nothing wrong. Something in him has awakened too, and that's really a good thing, don't you think? I am so sorry you are down and not in a good place, but try to focus again and you'll get past this.
