I'm just now reading this. I am very sorry it has turned out this way. I can't imagine how you feel. Well, I have an idea. I definitely think you have the right outlook, that this baby does give you the go-ahead to move on for good. Be assured that the mess he has created won't be fun. The ow didn't want him around her during the pregnancy? Wow, sounds like one fabulous relationship. I will pray that things go as smoothly for you as possible. It's time to make a new life for you, away from all of this. So many of us eventually face that turning point. We're all here to support you.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.