Hope, Your sitch or maybe your reaction to your sitch has often reminded me of mine. Details differ but nonetheless it is all about a guy who had an identity crisis, and left a wreck in his wake. I too am coming to realize that I just cannot wait for something that may not happen and furthermore a something that I may not want to happen. My friends and family of course got to this point a loong time ago. I think you are lucky to get a sort of apology for all this. And I am sure that you will get to the point that you are once again able to live in the present, and take advantage of the opportunities that are available to you in real time.
I am not sure that I will ever believe that this is all for the best (guess it depends on what happens), but I know I will make the best out of it that I can. And I know you will too. xxx Amy
