(Disclaimer: these are all my opinions and I am not an expert. I am speaking as a friend) I agree with the half that says you screwed up. I've been reading your posts for a week or so and it seems pretty clear to me that you don't want a divorce. If that's true, don't push for it. Don't presume to tell your W what she wants, that might be one of the things that she really doesn't like about you. Right now, the only thing you have control of is you so excercise that control. This is recoverable but I think the first thing you should do is honestly decide what you want. I think it's clear but it doesn't sound like it's clear to you. Once you do that, judge anything you say and do by that standard and you'll be fine.
