Yes, I am good at creating sexually exciting situations for myself and the man to whom I am relating.
Okay. Good. I think we are now in the same zoo. Good to know.
The whole 'vulnerability' aspect you've been mulling... I'm not so sure that is a 'cow' thing, especially after reading Hap's post to you... and you agreeing with her.
I generally see cows as not very intelligent... pretty stupid, actually. I think you were treated AS A COW by your ex... and maybe you just accepted his version of seeing you as a cow, rather than actually being what you really are.
So... I think that part of you that you are calling a COW is actually something else... and you just don't know what it is. But because you have been abused as a cow, and labeled a cow... you take it in absence of knowing any better. Kind of like the story of the Ugly Duckling. He had no idea he WASN'T an ugly duck, but rather, a beautiful swan.
I think that might be part of it. You've got a cow in the zoo, in place of _______ fill in the blank. And as the zoo keeper, you are just now realizing that. "Holy sh!t, THAT'S NOT a cow!? Then what is it???? Once you figure out what that is, you can feed and care for it properly.
Kwis?
I'm willing to bet that when you do figure out the proper identification of that animal, it's going to very much like strong man arms... and that feeling you get when you experience those strong man arms, at certain times, is not fear at all... just something you THINK, as a mislabeled cow, is fear.
And then that would mean I really do have a grip on this whole Animal Farm/Zoo thing... and wow... that might make me a dolphin... or a modern day Dr. Doolittle...
