Trying to get WAW back

[DaveJ]

Took S4 and D1.5 out to the playground for a bit of time with the kids yesterday morning. Even though W threw a fit when I suggested Fri, she seems to be appreciative of it. The things my S4 is saying is just breaking my heart. "Daddy why can't you work from home?" "Will you be here after my nap?" "Will you be home tonight? Tomorrow night?" "Daddy please stay home? Please?" *sigh* W just gets angry when I tell her. Thinking I'm trying to guilt trip her. Whatever. She thinks S4 will get over it eventually. I do wish she quit thinking about herself so much and think about the kids. I know she has a lot to deal with and it takes time, but still. At least acknowledge it. Oh whatever. That little boy almost made me break down and cry. Gotta tough it out and hope for the best. I think it may take a while for the W to straighten herself out....

This week my goal is not to slip with R talk. I'm really going to try to buckle down on that and make a very conscious effort. Last night really late I came back from a movie. W sent a picture of herself prettied up nicely and smiling to me. She took it for me earlier in the day. Melts my heart. We TM back and forth and ended up on the phone. She said she woke up middle of night and couldn't sleep. Really missing the heck out of me. Of course that triggered something and made me slip with the R talk. I messed up. Got so frustrated that she has these feelings for me but continuously trying to brush them aside. Oh well, gotta let her figure things out. Frustration and impatience are my enemy. Will really work on that this week!