I did go out and do all the things I planned but felt like crap the whole time, and almost started crying in public. Well, now that I have a few groceries, I'm going to stay in and accept that it's just one of those days.
I guess H has not told anyone because I see FIL called from caller ID. Our phone calls roll over to H's cell if I don't answer, but they get our voicemail if he doesn't answer. There's no message so who knows. I just check caller ID and let everything roll over to H's phone unless I know who it is. Let him get all the marketing calls.
I did the same stupid thing I did 4 years ago. I looked at the books at the bookstore and then got all depressed and discouraged because all of them focus on getting through the divorce instead of reconciliation. So I guess deep down I have that irrational hope that we will come back together. I feel like a fool for not just giving up.
In4ride Me 50, H 55, M 17 yrs 1st Bomb Drop 12/7/03 Separated mostly in house Come back together/H breaks back 9/04 Piecing, surgeries, recovery, H retires 2nd Bomb Drop 9/3/07 H moves out 20 min later
