Sweetie, I see you as still trying to control the outcome. You know where your H ought to be, and you want so much for him to be there, but you can't do it for him. You must let go. This lesson will present itself over and over to you til you get it. This is your work to do.
I say go drop the kids off at Lissie's and have a massage. Maybe I'll drop mine off there too, D14 can babysit, and we all can go!
