My H is more of a child than my children are. I've been feeling miserable for a few weeks now. I look at my H and see someone who just takes me for granted. He doesn't ever, ever go out of his way for me. He does what's best for himself. I have been feeling suffocated by it all.
Then last night, I went snooping again (yeah... I snooped. Shoot me). Frankly, I wanted to find something. I think deep down I was looking for something that would just give me that kick in the @ss I needed to make a move. And of course I did. What I found isn't really relevant. It was DEFINATELY enough for me to say I've had it. I went off on him last night. I said nasty things. He deserved it.
He's going to Vegas for work tomorrow. While he's gone, I'm going to my L. I want to be done with this pathetic excuse for a M once and for all. I deserve WAY better than this. Yeah, I feel guilty for my kids. But I can't live with someone who treats me this way.
I need to stop beliveing his crap words when he makes all sorts of promises to me. He's just a gonner.
Married 9 years Kids 5 and 6 Bomb 2006 H back and forth for a year M now back on track
