I asked H to leave; regret-now what?

[Luluber1]

It's been a hard two days, but I made it through. Today was melancholy. I've wanted to call my H and ask for a face to face talk, as suggested by Dom, however I've felt so blue that I couldn't make the phone call.

Today's my birthday and it was nice with my supportive sisters and family, but I was sad that my H did not call me. I wasn't expecting a call but it hurt nonetheless.

Since my H has gone dark on me I don't really know how to approach the whole situation, except to try Dom's idea, when I feel like I'm in a better place.

I thought of giving the telephone consultations a try, especially since my own C pretty much told me, 3 days ago, that I should move on and focus on myself; I guess I had a surprised look on my face and C said "you aren't thinking of going back to him are you?" I said "honestly, I don't know." C said I would just get hurt again-I got a little miffed.

My C saw both my H and I for 3 joint sessions 7 months ago-H quit after that; but C has seen me for over a year. This was not encouraging. That's probably why I'm bummed out.

Tommorrow will be a better day.