I am a tad nervous. I'm a cheerleader and don't want to be an Arfer...by the way, I thpught you described that well.

Sweetheart should be home soon, so I don't have a lot of time now. I just want to pull a few quotes out now and will try to return tomorrow.
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things like that tend to get my hopes up

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He said, "So I should do like you and tell you every time you hurt me?" I said, "of course you should!

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Get a life and keep moving on "as if." Emotionally, though, I just can't continue that.

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if he lets it go that far and blows that much money, I will not turn back when it is over

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I just wish he would leave me alone. I also wish that he wouldn't.

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I do know that I would not consider keeping this relationship going if I didn't think that I could be better in it.