Oh sweetie......my heart just hurt for you when I read your story. I think I know how you feel.....I really do. I identify with having no friends and how you feel when you go out and it appears eveyone has a life....except you. I know how you feel about being too embarrased to even be naked alone, etc. Even when I was considering a PA, I didn't know how on earth I would get past my own hang-ups with my body for a man to touch me.
You didn't say what your age is.......will you tell me? You just said you were older and I didn't know if you meant older than your H or just thought you were older than most people on here are.
Sweetie, I have never had an orgasam with my H! So, I know how frustrating it can be. We have not had sex....probably longer than you have been married!
I understand the depression, lack of energy......all of it. I was on 3 different anti-depression meds, sleeping med, pain killers, and more junk all at the same time. And....getting more depressed by the day! I finally got off the anti-depression meds and feel just as good, if not better, than when they had me on all that mess.
Anyway, talk to me. I will be here for you. It helps to come here and blow up to us and you can say anything on here. I have found that help a lot! (lol)
I am on here every night (and sometimes during the day if I get a chance) and I will look in to see if you have sent a post to me. I really care and want to hear from you again.
Sandi
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
