I feel like I am going through serious withdrawal. I can manage ok when he is not around (although it is still on my mind way too often), but I am a mess when around him, or even talking on the phone.
He told me this past week that I have no concept of what "give it TIME" means. And he is right. I seem to live a week (or more) in each day. I am trying very hard to get the focus back on me, and hope that work and GAL will help with this. I also feel like I am a different person--I was so much stronger than this, before. Secure. But I guess that was the down-side: those feelings depending on an outside source. Now, I have to find them again from within.
Does he want me to give it time so that 1) I stop bothering him and finally get out of his life and forcing him to confront the mess we are in
or
2) He needs to put some time between us so he can see the real picture and decide what he really needs to do.
He keeps saying he is done, that he doesn't know how else to tell me it, but then says to give it time.
When I said that I just need something to hold on to, some idea of hope, he said that he couldn't say that, because I would throw it in his face three weeks from now--but that I could say it.
