Almost lost it this morning. Woke up around 4:30, couldn't sleep, and had this insane desire to drive past her house to make sure there weren't any other cars parked out there. Almost did it too but jumped on here instead. Fact is, I would bet a lot of $ on her faithfulness even though she's not wearing her ring right now. Besides, what good would that possibly do me? If no one's there (and again, I would bet A LOT on that being true) I would feel guilty for having checked and if someone is, it would make my friendship face that much harder to put on this afternoon. At least, these are the things I'm telling myself at 5 am so I don't go anywhere
Hello Bryan...I could have written these exact words myself. What do we do? Someone on this board asked me if it was a deal-breaker if W did have OM. I thought about it...and thought about it and decided, honestly, if it does come to light, in my case, I don't think it would be a deal-breaker. Somehow that helps the anxiety/panic attacks become less frequent and I find the obsession to know lessens as well. I am trying to keep concentrating more on myself.
Unbelievably selfish of me to say that I'm writing this to help me really. Hope it helps you as well.
Me 44 W 39 M 10yrs (together 13 years) one D 8 ILYBINILWY Feb 2007 Separated - 5th September 07
Will get there in the end. Will get there in the end 2.
