Nikki - thanks for catching up on my thread. I am glad for the opportunity to go to Retro. At this point I don't know how it's going to turn out. There is a lot of pain on both sides of this marriage. I am hopeful for a solution to the pain and whatever Retro provides, I am open to it.

I think not focusing on the OW is so much easier said than done - especially when his feelings for her are so strong. H told me tonight that he never really ever committed to me (somehow this was news to me??) and that he has fully committed to OW. I don't know if he meant that or not as he is living in our house - but, I think there may be some truth behind that statement. I certainly didn't like hearing it, but if that's how he feels, at least he admitted it.

I would like all of this to be behind me and I don't know that we will make it. For the first time in a long time I'm beginning to doubt our love and our marriage in a very real way. It's not so pretty in our house right now. \:\(

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Me: 34
H: 39
M: 7 yrs
H A 12/05-8/07

If what you say surprises me, I must have been assuming something else was true. - M. Wheatley