yeah, but ya know, mk, I couldn't even look at him when we had sex the other day. because I've started to not see him as the man I love/married, but as the man who has been a complete and utter ass/jerk to me. the man who has lied to me. the man, who last winter, had me picking out his sex clothes. okay, so they weren't sex clothes, but I helped pick out a new wardrobe for him (he had lost weight) and kept telling him how hot he was. in fact, the day he went to spend the week with ow when I thought he was just working hard (I found out about the affair when he came back the following monday) I kept telling him how good the clothes we bought looked, how hot he looked, and that I shouldn't let him out of my site.
blech.
so part of me is numb. but if I close my eyes, I still love his body and he still knows mine very, very well.
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
