I'm not going to rip apart Mrs. HD. Sorry. I don't think it's fair to rip someone apart who has been nothing but consistent in Who She Is and How She Acts. That does not mean I endorse her in any, way, shape or form.
I'm not going to feel sorry for you either. I've got loads of empathy and compassion for you. But pity isn't in there...
I'm not even going to worry for you... because I KNOW, probably for the first time since we started posting, that you can handle this and you are going to find your way through it.
I might suggest you calm yourself a bit so you can think clearly.
And if there is anything I can do to help you work your way through this, just ask.
You CAN do this. I know it. But what is the best thing ever... is YOU know it.