Well, a little more info from last night. Got my head snapped off when I suggested I'd take the kids for a little bit on Sat afternoon to give her a break since I don't have anything planned. Apparently she doesn't need help or "pity" from me right now. She is doing just fine. Guess she's trying to assert her independence. Whatever.... Next time I'll just have to tell her I would like to spend some time with the kids.
Anyways. had a nice long talk with her after the kids went to bed last night on my visit. She has several issues she is working on and she's avoiding dealing with them so far. She knows she needs to, just trying to find the courage to do it. I know some of them have been a life time struggle and it's very difficult to deal with. First, she needs to deal with her eating disorder and emotional eating issues. Then she wants to deal with her self image and self confidence issue. When she can finally get through that, then she will deal with the resentment issue. I can see that if she is confident and believes in herself it would be easier to deal with the resentment head on. Sucks that it looks like it may be a while while she deals with all that. *sigh* I sure hope she might be ready for Retrouvielle in mid November. I just have to be patient and give her space. Since any help or support from me seems to be unappreciated and in fact make things worse. Have patience, keep smiling and make visits pleasant, and shut up. At least I am glad that she realizes that in the end she needs to deal with all these issues for her, not for the kids, not for us, but for her for things to last. She still believes that we can have a really good M if she can get past all the issues. Here's hoping she's strong and she will get past them.
M: 31 W: 31 M: 7 T: 8 S:4 D:2 Bomb dropped: too many to count or remember, 12/17/07 last one S on 9/2/07 W sent off D papers 12/31/07. Me trying to live life and hope she returns one day.
