Need a pep talk

[BryanS]

Almost lost it this morning. Woke up around 4:30, couldn't sleep, and had this insane desire to drive past her house to make sure there weren't any other cars parked out there. Almost did it too but jumped on here instead. Fact is, I would bet a lot of $ on her faithfulness even though she's not wearing her ring right now. Besides, what good would that possibly do me? If no one's there (and again, I would bet A LOT on that being true) I would feel guilty for having checked and if someone is, it would make my friendship face that much harder to put on this afternoon. At least, these are the things I'm telling myself at 5 am so I don't go anywhere