why don't I listen to my own stories?

[Trixi]

I think you just did the equivalent of asking someone who you've dated for a month, to go scope out china patterns with you. heh heh.

You know, I'm laughing, but it sure ain't funny. WTF was I thinking?!

Have I mentioned before that I think you're my twin?? In action right now, anyway!

It took me time to learn this but it is very, very unhealthy for both of you for you to plan your life around when you "might" get to see him. It sends the message that:

1. You're there for him no matter what - holding the door open, motioning for him to come inside...

2. Your plans and needs are less important than his.

If I plan something, then he offers to do something and I stick with my original plan, I think I will not have that great of a time.

3. You are so desparate to spend time with him, you'll do whatever it takes.

I need a dose of confidence. If I felt like I was Beyonce', I wouldn't hesitate to make my own plans. My "fear" is that if I become unavailable, he will start hanging out 'platonically' with women when I can't see him; and then god knows what would happen.