Peace will come through the Word. Get into your Bible DAILY. The Lord will speak through his word. It will comfort you and give you the peace you search for. Try a Psalm a day. Proverbs has 31 chapters - perfect for one every day of the month.
Another great resource is http://www.backtothebible.com . They have a bible study every day that you can watch the video of or sign up and have it delivered to your Email. I spend a portion of my lunch hour at work each day reading these studies. A great blessing.
If you haven't been to http://www.rejoiceministries.org/ don't read another letter of this post until you do. Go there and sign up for Charlyne Cares daily Email. This woman will light a fire in you!
As far as your marriage being saved - Read the amazing stories in the bible - Abraham, Joseph, Moses, Job, Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, Saul who was killing Christians before he was chosen by God to preach the Gospel. Read these and the many more. If God can do these things, what will keep him from changing the heart of your H?
Understand that this will be a process though. That's the hardest part for the newest members here. God can choose to change things in an instant, but frequently he prolongs things so that they may show forth HIS glory, not our DBing ;).
Read the story of the raising of Lazarus. Jesus prolonged raising him for many days so that he had a whole crowd of people around and was sure Lazarus was dead and rotting in the grave. Nobody there could argue it was a fluke! Had Jesus healed him from afar(which he certainly could have done) hardly anyone would have noticed. They could of assumed he got over it on his own. Through God's perfect timing, many witnessed the glory of God.
So take heart dear sister, God has great plans for you and your family through this trial.
Psalm 37: 7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret-it leads only to evil.
Read Psalm 27 - Great encouragement there too!
Jeremiah 29: 12 Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Phillipians 4: 6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable-if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things.
Finally, find someone else hurting on this site and give them encouragement. Many times it is when we are giving to others that we are most blessed ourselves!
Yours in Christ,
N.
FH, I'm not even going to apologize for the hijack - I know you welcome it!