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[cat03]

thanks friends, had a blast and danced danced the night away (if you've never tried zumba, do it now! nothing but the rhytm fills your mind and i'm sooooo relaxed.

Aud, you are a sweetheart, thank you I think I do need to regain my self steem so i'm not so hanged up on what he says now.
imLIN, I forget how long I had to wait before, it was a long time before he told me ILY.

Yes, he needs to become the man who would fight for me and want me, til then, he's in no shape to give me anything (or himself for that matter) I realize now that I have to make my own path without holding my breath for him.

I told him over the phone about the NJF book I had, seems he went through it, seems like he marked the park about a posibility of momentary separation while the involved partner figures himself out. Well, for the time being he's decided to stay in the spare room, I was dissapointed at the beginning when he told me so (and it was my idea!) but now I see its for the best, there'd be too many ackward silences and long emotional/angry midnight talks. So, that's the space he's got now.

I will try to figure out how to act normal in this abnormal sitch, he txt me today that all he remembers from our marriage from the most recent years was my recentment towards him. Well, I did try to fix things this past year, guess it wasn't enough for him. So I'll just GAL and try to focus on me and the kids.