Could someone PLEASE help me understand

[cagzmom]

now taht is funny! thank you for making me laugh!!

i had to be around him tonight and do have a plan of action for my heart for the future....yes he is worth it. I DONT know why and wish that i would stop it! REALLY! BUT the ride of my heart and who i am deserve to not be destroyed...and that is my goal...

i am in counseling and am in a very good place there. H is going to counseling too...not for US since december he has said he wasn't and didn't want to work on the m...this past month was teh first time in quite some time that he had said he didn't want it to be over...and then he pulled back.

i need to do this for me...and not to get him back. he is an idiot! (\ok i had to spend time with him tonight for daughters bday...no more though no more!!!)