I must say now that I am done crying I do feel this sense of calmness that you told me about. It is quite liberating to say the least. Will it last probably not? I think I am just really mad right now at him but he does not know that so I am still DB'ing up a storm.
Yeah, I've become very careful of those kinds of statements. Everytime I think I'm done crying or done being hurt or done caring what she does, something happens and it's no longer true. I've found it's more helpful to just press on like whatever it is that was negative never happened. Maybe that's not healthy, I don't know. But I do know that I was driving myself insane before thinking about whatever it was and getting upset that I even got upset about it. So now, I just make believe that things happened the way I wanted them to, even if they didn't. Makes it easier to stay positive and focused on my goals. I don't know if it's working or not but my W almost kissed me tonight when she gave me a hug goodbye. First time that's happened and when I mumbled something about it (I know, bad on me for not letting it go), she admitted to being confused which is also a first. Not sure what it all means but it's different and right now, different = good. Hang in there Lissie
