Frustrated and More Saddened #3

[stewart10]

Hey WAW:

I took a couple of days off from the board. Trying to occupy my mind with things not sitch related. Not as easy as you would think.

Sounds like the MC sesh was a good start. Baby steps. The MC sounds like he is trying to get the root of the matter and help you both take steps to restoring the relationship. I hope you both end up sticking to the commitments you made during your sesh. The calling & lunches should help you feel like your get more quality time with your W. I hope she also sees what her going out every night is doing to you.

I think the MC went well. As far as sticking to our commitments, I haven't drank in over a week now, she only stayed out Sunday night, she has been home every night except that night, albeit she has gone out, one night till after 5 am but at least she came home. And she hasn't called me once from work yet. Not sure why, since this was her suggestion, not mine.

Sorry the trip to NYC turned out to be a bit of a downer. I know that weddings are tough to handle, I have had three in the last month and two more coming up in October and November. So I understand completely how you felt.

We have another MC scheduled for next thursday. I met with a former partner today and she is going to send me some work to do (at a nice hourly rate) and offered to take me on until I get back on my feet. Don't really know what I am going to do. Have to do some serious thinking in the next few weeks to see where I want to be. I have become a bit calmer towards my situation. I think not having the stress of work on top of it has done wonders for me. I can now devote all my time to GAL and DB'ing. We shall see what kind of result it has. W told me yesterday that she thinks she needs to see a psych. and get some meds because she thinks that she is depressed and she is having anxiety. I really wish she would follow up on this. Perhaps I will ask doc next thursday when we meet with him. I really think it will help her even up a bit. She stays in bed almost all day until it is time for her to get up and get ready for work. It is quite depressing to see.

I am going to try and catch up on everyone in the next few days. It is just so overwhelming. I go away for a few days and so much has happened with everyone that I am waaaaay behind. But I am gonig to do my best to get caught up.

Stew