Frustrated and More Saddened #3

[Heimlich]

Leaning toward the LG 42 inch 720 (can't swing the premium on 1080), but plan on spending some time in Best Buy tomorrow. Ah, shopping!
BD

[stewart10]

I spoke to one of the guys at best buy asking about the differences between the 720p 1080p and 1080i. He said you don't need the 1080i unless you have blue ray disc player. Between the 720p and 1080p he said there is no distinguishable difference. Just be prepared for all the additional equipment they will recommend. That got to be expensive. Maybe do some research before you go whether you need power regulator with the TV. That was $299 on top of the price on the TV.

[waw1978]

Hey Stew

Sounds like the MC sesh was a good start. Baby steps. The MC sounds like he is trying to get the root of the matter and help you both take steps to restoring the relationship. I hope you both end up sticking to the commitments you made during your sesh. The calling & lunches should help you feel like your get more quality time with your W. I hope she also sees what her going out every night is doing to you.

As far as my trip to NYC...it turned out to be a doozie. I drove in to meet a friend. We had dinner, drinks and then she didn't want to go out later. Total bummer for me. But I coaxed her out around midnight and we went to Whiskey Park which was just a couple blocks from her place. Well the next day we were supposed to go to a wedding in Long Island and I freaked out, had a panic attack and ended up taking the Orient Ferry back to CT without attending the wedding. Never realized how a wedding would take a toll on me.

Anyway, sorry I didn't get back to you in time. I was just too busy with my little one.

[stewart10]

Hey WAW:

I took a couple of days off from the board. Trying to occupy my mind with things not sitch related. Not as easy as you would think.

Sounds like the MC sesh was a good start. Baby steps. The MC sounds like he is trying to get the root of the matter and help you both take steps to restoring the relationship. I hope you both end up sticking to the commitments you made during your sesh. The calling & lunches should help you feel like your get more quality time with your W. I hope she also sees what her going out every night is doing to you.

I think the MC went well. As far as sticking to our commitments, I haven't drank in over a week now, she only stayed out Sunday night, she has been home every night except that night, albeit she has gone out, one night till after 5 am but at least she came home. And she hasn't called me once from work yet. Not sure why, since this was her suggestion, not mine.

Sorry the trip to NYC turned out to be a bit of a downer. I know that weddings are tough to handle, I have had three in the last month and two more coming up in October and November. So I understand completely how you felt.

We have another MC scheduled for next thursday. I met with a former partner today and she is going to send me some work to do (at a nice hourly rate) and offered to take me on until I get back on my feet. Don't really know what I am going to do. Have to do some serious thinking in the next few weeks to see where I want to be. I have become a bit calmer towards my situation. I think not having the stress of work on top of it has done wonders for me. I can now devote all my time to GAL and DB'ing. We shall see what kind of result it has. W told me yesterday that she thinks she needs to see a psych. and get some meds because she thinks that she is depressed and she is having anxiety. I really wish she would follow up on this. Perhaps I will ask doc next thursday when we meet with him. I really think it will help her even up a bit. She stays in bed almost all day until it is time for her to get up and get ready for work. It is quite depressing to see.

I am going to try and catch up on everyone in the next few days. It is just so overwhelming. I go away for a few days and so much has happened with everyone that I am waaaaay behind. But I am gonig to do my best to get caught up.

Stew

[limbo]

Stew,

Glad to see that you are going well! Its good that you W has recongnized that she may need additional help, its a start, it might take her alittle time to actually do it, but at least she seems to know something isn't right.
It will be a bumpy ride to start, the meds can make them feel worse to begin with, but DO NOT let her make the same mistakes my H did, which was to start and stop the meds a few times, because it really made things alot worse!
Also try to read as much as you can about depression, it helps to understand what they are going through and really see this as an illness.

[waw1978]

Hey Stew

Glad to hear that you got some work to tide you over. Also good news about your W finally mentioning the depression. Hopefully this and the MC will move your sitch along (in a good way).

[Heimlich]

Hey, Stew, things still going OK?
BD

[stewart10]

Hey Heim:

Yeah, things are going along. Not really improving for me. She has been sick with a bad sinus infection since last Thursday so when she is home she mostly spends it in bed. Yet somehow she got the strength up to make it to a going away party for people from her work Saturday night (so annoying but I got over it). I had gone to see my parents off for Europe. They will be gone for the next three weeks. She did go to work tonight. But she has been really short with me not really interacting with me at all. I am sick of putting forth all the effort in trying to keep up communication between us.

We have another MC session Thursday. Looking forward to that, but as always, not really sure that it is going to do anything for us. Thanks for checking in Heim, WAW and Limbo.

[cliffy]

Stew, it sounds like your letting the negative creep in. Try to focus on the things you have going for you and the things you are thankful for.
Good start on W recognizing, you may have to shoulder the load for a bit longer, I'm sure your up to it. How is your PMA, etc.?

[stewart10]

Thanks Cliffy. You are right. I am focusing on the negatives. Got to do better about that. I am looking forward to getting back to the MC and see what W thinks about how things are going. She always seems to be so unhappy. Don't know what I can do to help so going to the MC gets her to talk and tell me what bothers her or what she wants.

PMA is average right now. Not too high, but not terribly low either. Will try and work on that.