vacation is over, I am leaving

[limbo]

I feel that way, I just want to not have to go through life without worry, just normal worry, but not is my life going to implod at any moment...It has been a year of this constent worry!

H came home tonight, and brought up about him working back at the old place, we didn't go to deep but it was a start, he alluded to us sitting down each night and talking for short periods about this kind of "stuff"...so if he is making the attempt then I will work with that...but I am so not trusting of this kind of stuff, but I am trying!