Draft is in two hours due to logistical complications with a league member who has to call in from Vegas. We'll keep the TV off while drafting.
Thanks for the book tip. It sounds weird, but I am so wrapped up into reading and journaling and therapy right now. I have done other new things to GAL and they feel great, but in some ways GAL is tied to the process of self-discovery I feel I am finally on. I may loose my marriage but gain my soul!
I want a new marriage, but I am more and more focused on myself--what do I need to do to be the best person I can be? I really feel that. If WAW and I reconcile and build a new marriage, great. I want to be in a committed, real marriage. I'm not going to rewrite history and say I hated everything about the old one, but the more I read and reflect, the more I see the problems. I still believe WAW, at least as I think I know her, can be good for me and I for her, but I'm increasingly prepared to grasp that I don't know her now in many ways. And I know she doesn't know me. We will have to get to know one another all over again if there's any hope. If not, we move on. I hate to come across as glib; it would hurt badly to lose a 17 year relationship with a woman I love. I am not eager to go test the waters on the dating pool; everyone has their issues.
At the same time, I'm not going back for the sake of going back. There needs to be some serious work from both of us if there's to be a new marriage.
Good luck to your team in the new season. It's nice to have football back!
