I know this is gonna sound crazy but believe me......the more you focus on your feelings, your near future, your child, and YOU YOU YOU the easier things will seem.
it took me a long time to figure that out. i kept worrying about where my H was and what he was doing and why he wasn't calling, etc etc. i finally clicked. i said to myself "stop worrying, God will lead the way". believe me when i say that things do get better each and every day. your H is a bit different than mine. yours has somewhat of another person. til this day i haven't found out if mine has one or had one. DON'T WANT TO KNOW EITHER. why kill myself over something that means nothing for the time being, right? as the old saying goes "if i haven't seen him with another woman then it's not true".
anyway, prayer has helped tremendously. constant praying. thanking God for each and every morning. i have my health. i have a home. i have food for me and the kids. i couldnt ask for more. (except maybe a couple more hundred dollars each month so that i wouldn't stress about bills) but that's totally my fault. i should be working much more and relaxing less. since all my kiddos are in school now i seem to feel "free". i work from home so i have some time to myself. and that's where i slack. i need to focus more on work that way i won't be stressing out so much about finances. even though my h is home, i still want to be financially independent.
take my word for it. the more you focus on YOU and your work, the less you'll worry about your problems. i will pray for your well being...........
take care.
me = 34 H = 35 kids = 3 worst day of my life: march 24, 2006 he filed: april 20 Present day: Wedding ring on, he's looking forward to another baby, taking day by day, we talk about our feelings whenever possible.
