In4Ride, I have a feeling that your h's mlc wasn't completely finished. Some of them are snatched from their crisis or shocked back to reality too soon and once again, at a later time, will go right back into crisis. They have to go through the entire crisis in order to come out the other side a whole, healed individual.
I'm sorry you are back for another trip on the coaster. It's not a fun way to spend your life riding on.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
