oh whapu, thanks so much for your words \:\( feel like crying right now. Just talk to H, he asked why I was tensed (I was brewing about the fact that perhaps the story of the car repair was fake but a sec ago he agreed to give me a receipt) and I told him he didnt' appologized.
He said... this is precious, he "thougth he did, I've messed up on so many things I dont' know what I've appologized for already", then he exploded saying how he feels pushed again from both sides (op and me) and I just hanged up, wasn't going to take his abuse. He actually call and left a msg ( i didnt' pick up) that he was sorry he lost control and that he thought things were alrigth (I was upset yesterday but ended up talking fine to him and watched a movie together at night) so he was taken by surprise with my attitude.

I was really tempted whapu, but you are prob right, I dont' need one more problem , I'll come to whine here \:\) where you all understand. Thank you so much, your words mean a lot to me,I really needed them.

Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2

30something
2kids
survivor of S, MLC, A, D
I have peace in my heart, at last.