good morning KS,
Acting 'as if'. Fine line between delusion and db, isn't it? ;-)

I was thinking about the person you are maybe, kind of, sort of, seeing - I believe you may have called him your band aid? Someone who pays attention to you, treats you well?

I was thinking, does this guy know your sitch? I think you are quit strong, and getting stronger, but that you still need time to process all this and really get your feet under yourself. I was wondering if you were being fair to this guy and that he knew you may not be ready for the kind of relationship he may wish for.

I'm projecting a little. I've got a "friend" who I think I could have a relationship with, but I worry that if I pushed the relationship, it would be for my own selfish reasons, like - wanting to feel loved again, wanting someone to want me, having companionship, those kind of things, and Until and Unless I can see her for who she is, and not what she can do for me, I shouldn't be messing with her (OH! and until I'm divorced, which may never happen, maybe).

Just a thought. Move slowly.


M45, W45,S15, D10,
Bomb 10/3/06, Moved back in 11/6/06, finally ILY 9/07
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