lwb, you will be fine. I remember being really nervous back in june when I took the kids to some place big on my own (science museum in boston, on a saturday no less). but it worked out really well. my kids are really good, generally speaking, and know mommy has rules about staying together and such. they know we always hold hands in parking lots, or if it gets really crowded and the like. it can be hard, especially at first, going where there are a lot of happy families together. you might consider asking a friend is she and her kids want to go with you, sometimes that is nice. but I'm starting to really love the adventures the kids and I have together. its gets not only easier, but better.
the twins will be in school 2.5 hours/2x a week, so 2 days I'll have a little time to myself. one day will be my therapy. yes, I am continuing with it, I love my therapist and am making huge strides I think. I know I would still be a wreck without her. she keeps me focused on myself, and even on weeks that I have huge drama with H, I bring it in and we deal with it a bit, but she always brings the focus back on me and it ends up being nothing about H. love how she can do that...as you can tell, I easily dwell on H/H and I.
mk, you sound sad...or are you just tired? I'm still tired this morning, not a lot of sleep last night (D3 kept getting up for some reason). about your silver lining, its nice, isn't it, not having to deal with h's issues. H is normally a very fun father, was a really fun/wonderful husband, but things also set him off that make me think he's nuts sometimes. from happy to snapped in 5 seconds over such stupid little things. I'm not saying I'm perfect, I get frustrated, but I also know enough to walk away for a minute if I am, count to ten, cool down, whatever, instead of taking it out on the kids. so its nice to not have that in my everyday life. of course, I also don't have the fun of him, either, and that's what sucks for me, and for them.
glad you found a good book. I'm so tired of self-help ones (I have so many at this point, several going at once) that one of my favorite single mom inspirations is to watch Gilmore Girls. I know it sounds cheesy, but its a lot of fun and even if its fiction, I find it makes me feel like I can do anything/be anyone/make it as a single mom. and it makes me smile and laugh, which is always a good thing.
well, off to get the munchkins ready for school. my S3 is nervous as a cat about it, telling me he doesn't want to go. uh-oh. wish me luck!
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