But there was nothing #3

[nephartiti]

Sometimes I question my sanity. My H was telling me today, again, that all of our problems are my fault, and I actually apologized! Then I started thinking. Wait a minute, I didn't forsake my vows. He had a R w/ an OW, he abandoned his family, he punched me. How is it my fault he spent 5 days in jail? Because I was stressed? Because I had post partum depression? Because I got royally ticked off when I found out he was cheating?

But he still denies there is OW. They are just "friends." Is it possible that I made a huge deal out of nothing? After all he only spent 300 min on the phone with her in 2 weeks, didn't come home several nights, and suddenly realized that maybe he doesn't love me anymore. Msybe A is just my imagination?

I never thought I'd put up with this either, but here I am begging for more b/c I still belive thre is hope. Because I still love the idiot, and I want my kids to have an unbroken home.

My H always spoke badly of cheaters too. Wonder how he lives with himself. Oh, yeah, it's all my fault.

"Ya never know what is going to happen."