My ride on the Roller Coaster called WAW Hell

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How did you see this text? If she's serious about reconciling, personally, I don't see how it's done with OM in the picture. If you weren't snooping, seems like a good opportunity for you to broach the subject.

I was snooping. no excuses

Is she picking up on this? Are you reverting to previous, negative habits that got you here? Are you blaming her for the A? If so, she's noticing/picking up on those vibes. I made these mistakes. Don't do them. Force yourself to do stuff that makes you happy.

I am sure she has noticed that I am not as "happy" as I was previously but I don't feel that I am slipping into old habits. I am withdrawing and trying not to spend as much time with her. I am trying to let her deal with having the kids by herself without help for a while. My old habit was to try to spend more time with her, that is definitely not the issue. I am still trying to do the things that make me happy but it is getting more difficult due to the financial crunch that I am beginning to feel. (I am now covering most of the same bills on half the income.)

Hey, LSU won last week. You should be ecstatic, right?

I am. GEAUX Tigers! Bring on VT baby!

Is she open to talking about the R with you? If so, might be time to do a status check on where you both are

I don't know I've gotten so good at not bringing it up that I don't know how to approach the topic.
Actually I think the R discussion is possible but is a minefield because as soon as her job or OM come up she is on the defensive and firing up the pitch on the castle walls.