My ride on the Roller Coaster called WAW Hell

[Heimlich]

Steel,

If you need her to end the A, tell her. Ain't nothing wrong with that. If you can live with the uncertaintly, that's OK too. You've gotta decide what you can deal with.

I would like to give the benefit of the doubt and think that this is so she could end the A, but I just can't convince myself.

How did you see this text? If she's serious about reconciling, personally, I don't see how it's done with OM in the picture. If you weren't snooping, seems like a good opportunity for you to broach the subject.

Can't remember, but would pushing the MC/scheduling it yourself be a bad thing; "W, I'd like to schedule MC for us, what days are good for you?"

For what it's worth, I was angry about my W's A as well. While I never will understand why she went through with it, I do finally understand how she got there emotionally through being married to me (not a cakewalk for a while). Somehow, once I really accepted my role, that anger melted away (of course, that was only back in June, so it took me awhile).

Gotta develop that duck's back, because it's not going to be easy, whichever course you take.

I know that my PMA has suffered and is lacking lately.

Is she picking up on this? Are you reverting to previous, negative habits that got you here? Are you blaming her for the A? If so, she's noticing/picking up on those vibes. I made these mistakes. Don't do them. Force yourself to do stuff that makes you happy. Hey, LSU won last week. You should be ecstatic, right?

I try to tell myself that she is confused and that she is trying to work her way through the fog. I try to convince myself that she really is trying and that it is a gradual thing.

Yep.

Is she open to talking about the R with you? If so, might be time to do a status check on where you both are.

BD