thanks PS, as much as this second op event has rattled me out, I realized that had I not found out H would've kept me in the dark about his void and just faked it all along over again and then when he couldn't put up the facade anymore he was going to pull another dissapearing act claiming he tried but didn't work. This time he is seing a T and with luck in time we'll both be going back to the MC.
And we live to see another day
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.