I'm still feeling quite a few lingering negative voices, i.e.
"You're just a massive fcuk up, everyone can see it" "Attractive eh? Then how come the one person who knows you best doesn't think so?" "You see what happens when you try, you fail, everytime. Why bother trying anymore, you're life may suck a little, but at least it won't suck a lot."
The self-esteem battle is one you never really win for good. Those voices are a part of me. Sometimes I'm just better at ignoring them. But at least I do know that it is possible to beat them back now ... for awhile anyway.
Oh, and I did forget to mention yesterday in all my self-generated hoopla, that the other morning I did carry my W into the bedroom, made out with her a little bit, and told her I was unhappy with her spending so much time on the computer. Last night as soon as I walked into the room and sat in the easy chair, she shut down the web browser and with just a little protest (i.e. "you promise you'll kick me out after a few minutes, and NO rocking") sat in my lap and we cuddled. Ironically enough, I was the one who feel asleep.
Chrome
"Recollect me darlin, raise me to your lips, two undernourished egos, four rotating hips"
