You've been through a lot obviously. If you've already started dbing.. great, if not get the book it will help you. You definately need to gal.. it sounds like you are a little bit, but keep it up, it will help with your depression also.
Im sorry that you are your boys are going through this. When kids are involved, its so much worse. My boys are 1 1/2 and 4 1/2 so I know.
Its unfair that she is doing this, but you have also have admitted to having contributed to the problems.. it seems like she does not take any responsibility though, that is not good.
It takes two.. As far as the depression goes maybe you need to see a different dr. that will help you another way besides medication.
You should be proud of yourself the way you are handling everything with your kids. It is important that they stay in there home, just make sure you protect yourself (finacially that is).
You will get some great advice here, especially from Mark,theo and Husband, they are wise men and will help you get through this.
From a women's perspective, I don't think all is lost here. So keep up with the dbing and gal.. Don't beg her or plead with her, remain calm and keep her quessing..As far as the sex thing goes, I can't give any advice there, because my H doesn't think he gets it enough.. but I will say that they do take it personally.. but also she SHOULD be intiating also, not just you.
Blessings~
TAL
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.