He has said he was never meant to be married or a father. I'm seeing that more and more.

As far as taking him back...honestly....it's anti-DB but no. I don't see me ever going back. He ran the plans by me and "tried" but never actually made the efforts it would take to save our marriage.

I can't believe him anymore. I've lost faith and trust in him. I know that "with God, all things are possible" but I had hope for such a long time....and now, nothing.

I don't want to be his second choice. I don't want to be what he settled for because his relationship with her didn't work out. I won't.

I was thinking last night. It seems this is his pattern. He was still with his son's mother (although their relationship sucked and she was/is crazy) when we were hanging out. I didn't realize it until last night that that's his pattern.....whether he knows it or not. Make friends with someone, spend time with them, and them BOOM.....you have a back up plan for when your current R fizzles out...

I agree with you that he is missing out. She's such a cool kid. We went to dinner together on Sunday and she talked my ear off. But she has a lot of cool things to say. If we had been there as a family, he would have been irritated with her, I would have been because she would most likely be interrupting ;\) and that's not fair to her. I need to enjoy her now - because before too long she won't WANT to talk to me at all.

....Understand, that I can't, not be what I am
I'm not the milk, and Cheerios in your spoon
~ Avril Lavigne ~
..."Nobody's Fool"...

me=ok /D'd since 7/07
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